heart-of-a-wildflower
Random ED things nobody really talks about
- Being jealous of friends or people who have been severely underweight/ hospitalized
- Hundreds of awkward angle body checking photos
- Looking at the size of your legs/body in every mirror, reflection, shop window
- Being disgusted at watching people eat
- Comparing people’s body size and weight to yours before noticing anything else about them
- Being obsessed with cooking/dieting/food programmes
- The pain of hitting your hip bone on a table
- Hating yourself for judging anyone who is healthy or overweight
- Being proud of your lowest weight once recovered/weight restored
- Eye rolls when anyone without an ED discusses their new diet/weight loss
- Eating every tiny bit of a specific calorie portioned food because damn if you’ve counted those calories you are gonna enjoy them
- Feeling embarrassed for eating ‘unhealthy’ foods because people assume you eat nothing/survive on lettuce
- 'Wow you’re actually eating’ kill me
- Not enjoying excercise or wanting to work out
- Alternating between being scared of all food and wanting to consume everything in sight
- Really horrific awful bad breath (like seriously bad)
- One day you’re too scared to eat a tomato the next you eat chocolate without worrying about it
- Looking in the mirror after eating and feeling like you gained 20lbs
- The anxiety and embarrassment of buying laxatives/diet pills